Change your attitude, and good things will happen!

Hey everyone! Hope you’re all well! My last blog post caused a few ripples in my life wave…to say the least! But if I didn’t put that stuff out there, I would be constantly carrying it around, and now that I said what I had to, I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I can’t explain it- I just feel free! I’ve also learned a lot about myself in the past two weeks, which has been awesome.

I’ve learned that crying does not solve anything- it just causes you to feel worse; John Mayer writes some pretty depressing songs- Ke$ha does not; Some people that you thought were the real deal, are actually fake; You can become friends with people, no matter, age, race, gender, etc- as long as you share a common interest;  and I am so much stronger than I think.

That’s a lot of stuff to process. There are still going to be days where I cry and all I want to listen to is a stupid John Mayer song- and guess what? That’s okay. It’s okay to feel feelings and express them- just not all the time- I have to get that part together. I don’t think I’ve smiled as much as I have in the past week- for no reason at all- just because. It’s seriously the most amazing feeling. When I look back on all that I’ve accomplished and my life- things aren’t bad- AT ALL. Why am I just realizing this now? I don’t know- maybe I’ve grown a little in the past 2 weeks.

The amount of “fake” people in my life- in all aspects of my life (work, gym, home, etc.) are far less than the amount of real people I can count on. That’s pretty amazing. I know that if I’m going through something, I can talk it out with Elena or Mike; If I have a million questions concerning a certain wod, or about my progress in the gym, I can holla at Kaylee or Mike L (P.S- we have too many Mike’s at our box)!. If I come across something hilarious in my dating (non-existent) life- I can text Colleen M. and we’ll laugh about it. If I’m sad, happy, confused, or eating something delicious, I can share that with my best friend Laura and she’ll get it. If I want to hear the truth from a teenager’s (basically an adult) point of view, I’ll ask Rachel. Without crossfit and all of the bonds I’ve created with these people, I wouldn’t know what to do. I would still be that lost soul with no life direction, filled with complete sadness. I am forever grateful for the real people- my friends who only want the best for me; who wholeheartedly care for me and my well-being; who are willing to share good times and bad with me. It’s amazing.

I went to a church service today with Nicci and Michelle. It was my first Christian church service (I’ve been trying to find new ways to be at peace), and my Nonni would be so mad if she knew that I wasn’t going to a Catholic mass, but I’m trying new things and it really resonated with me. At the end of the service, the pastor invited people up to receive a blessing if you were feeling lost or carrying guilt- whatever your problem may be, he wanted us to just let it go and leave it up to God. I constantly carry guilt, and when I received that blessing, I almost felt like a weight was take off of my shoulders. I came to the realization that there are a lot of things that are well beyond my control. I can’t control how others are going to feel, I can only control how I respond to their feelings, and even then, it’s still not in my hands. I don’t want to get all religious on you- I’m not one of those people, but I do believe that there’s a higher power out there that has a plan for us- and now it’s time to see where this plan will take me. I’m not the best person out there- but I have a good heart- I know it. and I know good things will come when the time is right. Good things are already here! I have a crossfit family that I wouldn’t trade for anything, and a new zest for life that I never had before!

So this week has also been a pretty decent week for me (crossfit wise). The Battle of the Sexes at RCFBC has started and Colleen M and I are partners. I couldn’t think of a better person to have as my second half in this competition- she does need a little re-directing at times, but Colleen is my main chick. She’s strong as can be, yet incredibly humble. She never writes her name on the board, her makeup and hair are always perfect pre and post wod, and she’s an all around pretty decent human. The first two wods of the 5 week long competition were 7 min. for each partner to establish a 2RM Touch and Go C&J AND to accumulate as many burpees as possible. So while one person was trying to establish their 2 rep max clean and jerk, the other person was doing as many burpees as possible- Then you switched whenever in the 7 minutes. There was a lot of math involved, and we had to weight in- my biggest nightmare (I HATE THE SCALE!) but we put up some decent weight, for a couple of girls. I got up to 95lbs for 2 reps, and I hit 100lbs for 1 rep, but couldn’t get the second one. Colleen got 100lbs for 2 reps, and 105lbs for 1 rep (I think- might have been more, I can’t really remember!) and as a team, we accumulated 66 burpees. Not the best, but certainly not the worst! I think we did pretty well, at least I think it did- seeing that my last one rep max clean and jerk was at 90lbs! I can’t wait to see what next week brings- I’m actually getting pretty nervous- it’s the open all over again!! 

I just want to give a little shout out to the Saran’s who are leaving for California tomorrow. Dale- when I first met you in onramp, I thought to myself- who is this guy trying to give me tips? Isn’t he in onramp like me? Then I found out he was the head lawyer for all of CrossFit. Like the whole CROSSFIT name. You are amazing, and have done great things, and have raised a couple of beautiful, strong daughters that I’ve had the honor of having in my life. Thanks for that. 

Molly- You are truly an amazing woman. It takes a lot of guts to coach a class of adults while being a teenager (now adult!). You have such a kind heart, and you are truly a beautiful person- inside and out. You are going to do great things, and I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors! ❤

Rachel- I cannot even begin to explain the impact you’ve had on my life. You’ve taught me that it’s okay to be weird and not care about what other people think; it’s fine to send a text message that is approximately 2 full length pages long; But most of all, you’ve taught me to be comfortable in my own skin. I know that my life is significantly better by having you in it. You are truly a woman among girls- I wish I had the confidence and awesomeness that you radiate when I was your age. You are so strong- mentally and physically, and I’m going to miss seeing you at the box most afternoons, but I know you’re on to a new chapter in your life, and just like everything else, you’re going to rock it. I know I’ll be seeing your name soon in Carson! Don’t ever change- and don’t ever stop sending me hilarious snapchats and mile long text messages. I love you and already miss you like whoa. XOXO ❤

So now, I’m going to bed with a happy heart and feeling complete content. I may never have my ducks in a row, but who cares?  Things could be so much worse, and I’m completely grateful for all the good I have in my life right now.

-AA ❤

When your life plan veers off track…

Hi everyone! Hope you are all well! I’m doing okay…I think. haha. 

So things in my life have not been going according to plan. At least the plan that I had mapped out in my head. Anyone who knows me, is very aware that I hate being off route- I don’t like not having a plan, and flying by the seat of my pants. So when something happens that I don’t expect, it rattles me. A lot. I know I sound like a broken record, most of the time, and this post will probably be something that you’ve read before, but it’s just stuff I need to get off of my chest- and then maybe I’ll feel a little better!
At this point in my life, I imagined myself in my own home, with a husband (or serious significant other)- maybe with a kid. Instead, I’m living at home, with no significant others in sight- like no men in sight, and a ton of debt. Basically, the complete opposite of where I thought I would be. The last few weeks have been especially trying for me (it’s wedding season), and I just have this overall feeling of failure. I’ve been trying to focus on the positive things that I’ve accomplished in life, but somehow, it’s not enough. I just always feel like I’m in life limbo- nothing is that good, but nothing is that bad either. It’s weird, and I don’t like being at this point. I can put on a face wherever I am, but no one knows what happens when I drive home from work (hint: it’s crying to John Mayer alone- ha) or when I get home (hint: it’s still crying to John Mayer in bed- alone). I try to keep my positive outlook on things, but some days, I just don’t have it. And when people call me out on it, I don’t know what to do. I shouldn’t be sad about things- I have a job, a good family, my health, and friends; but it’s those other things I mentioned before that make me feel like I’m missing out. 
As long as I can remember, I’ve never quite fit in anywhere. In my family, I was always the one who sort of did her own thing- the lost cause- the one with all the problems. In school, I never had a definitive set of friends, and I never fit in with one particular clique- I sort of had friends every where- which is good in some ways, but now I just feel like I didn’t try hard enough- I wasn’t a nerd, but I also wasn’t stupid- I was just average. In college, I kept to myself- I didn’t have that college experience that most people had- I did my work, went to my internships, and that’s it. I never even went to one party in college! I didn’t start really coming out my shell until I joined CrossFit. And even now, through all of my struggle, and new found confidence, I still feel like I don’t belong. I over-compensate and try to make everyone happy, and in turn, I make myself feel worse. It’s a bad cycle. 
I’m there- I give my all during WODs, but most of the time I feel like I’m still so far behind where I should be at this point in my CF career. Everyone else is making great gains, and I’m here just still being average- or slightly below average. It’s frustrating. So then in turn, I self medicate with food, and it becomes a vicious cycle. I work so incredibly hard at the workouts, and then go home and eat shitty because I feel bad about myself. I will add in, I’m eating way better than I was pre-CF, but still, why am I doing this to myself? Thankfully, my amazing coach (and awesome girl-crush) Kaylee has been helping me get back on track. Food is my drug; It’s something that could kill me and also something I can’t live without. I guess I’m having a hard time finding that healthy balance. But I am working on it- it’s just going to take some time. 
As most of you know, I’ve been trying online dating for a while now. The reason I decided to share all of these private things with you, is because I had a moment while online that made me lose all faith in humanity. Now, I’ll warn you, this is pretty graphic- so if you don’t want to read it- stop here. haha. 
I had been talking to this guy for a while- just online- I gave him my number, but he never took the initiative to be a real man and call me. I didn’t think anything of it, I just figured it was a dumb guy being dumb. So we continued chatting online..for a long time. All of a sudden, out of no where, he asks me what my fetish was. Usually, I just block people when it gets to this point, but I decided to play along for a bit. You guys no me- my only fetish is a uniformed man- doesn’t matter what kind of uniform- hah. So then I asked him what his was, and here’s where it gets awful- He said he wanted me to pleasure him by wearing a big, black, strap on. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I just lost it. I blocked him, and deleted my account. And he wasn’t joking- just in case that’s what you’re thinking. All I could think of after that was- is that the kind of vibe I’m giving off? Someone who will do anything, just because I’m a larger lady and presumably easy? Well you know what, that’s completely wrong. I deserve the good things just like every other woman. I’m sick of scumbags, and losers, but I can’t get rid of them completely. Some of the most important people in my life would be labeled as a scumbag, in today’s society. Why can’t I get rid of them (him)? Because they (he) is one of my friends, and I care about them (him) immensely. And perhaps the most important reason is that I’m developing feelings for this “scumbag.” And I can’t because I just can’t. I’m not his type, he’s not my type, but there’s something that attracts me to this mess of a person. I feel confident that he’ll never see this, because naturally, I care more than he ever will- so he probably will never read this.
I know that it’s taking a risk, putting all of this stuff out there- I could lose one of the people in my life that I truly care about, even though it could be good for me. I’m just feeling lost. and I don’t know how to get myself back to a place where I’m that strong willed woman that I was a few months ago. I’ve been seeing a new therapist, and have been working through some of this stuff, so this was my way of bringing it into the light and stop tip-toeing around everything. 
I promise, next blog post will be 100% more positive- I’m done living with this pity party attitude. Time to woman up and get it together. I’m a good person, and I deserve the best and it’s time for me to start believing that. 
Thanks for letting me vent and get this off of my chest- sorry if I offended anyone with my gross online dating story, but it happened, and it definitely scarred me. 
I can’t thank you guys enough for your positive reinforcement and help over the past year and a half. I’m starting to make it out my shell, and I could not do it without the help of people like you all. Thank you will never be enough! ❤
❤ AA

Murph, Memorial Day, Regionals, and a bunch of other stuff!

Hi! Hope you are all well!
Things have been nuts the past few weeks. Sometimes I feel like my head is spinning- between work, crossfit, and my other extra curricular activities, I feel like I’m missing something or forgetting to do something! I guess that means I need to take a step back, and start writing things down!

Anyhow, a couple of weeks ago we had The “Murph” Challenge at our gym. Murph is a hero- here’s the description from Crossfit.com:
For time:
1 mile Run
100 Pull-ups
200 Push-ups
300 Squats
1 mile Run

In memory of Navy Lieutenant Michael Murphy, 29, of Patchogue, N.Y., who was killed in Afghanistan June 28th, 2005.
This workout was one of Mike’s favorites and he’d named it “Body Armor”. From here on it will be referred to as “Murph” in honor of the focused warrior and great American who wanted nothing more in life than to serve this great country and the beautiful people who make it what it is.

Partition the pull-ups, push-ups, and squats as needed. Start and finish with a mile run. If you’ve got a twenty pound vest or body armor, wear it.” 

After the final mile of “Murph” L-R  “THE MONARCHY (Mike, and Elena), Alisa, Me, Rose, and Lisa! 

So yeah, it’s a pretty tough wod. I did it last year, but my wrist was broken, so everything was scaled- this year, I had to bring it! But everything was scaled again. Sometimes I feel like I’m not doing as much work as everyone else when I scale things, but that’s a personal issue that I have to learn to deal with. But, that’s neither here nor there. ANYWAY, it was awesome. We had a great turn out and helped raise over $8,000 for The New England Center for Homeless Veterans! That’s pretty awesome! They timed it a little differently this year. We had 10 minutes to complete the first mile- LOL never going to happen- I got 5 or 6 laps in out of 8. And then 40 minutes to finish everything else. (I knew I would never finish, but I still gave it my all). Not too bad, I just wish I could run like a runner, but I’m not one, so I guess that’s why- haha. For pull ups, the scaling option was jumping pull ups, push-ups from the knees, and there is no scaling option for the good ole’ squat! The second mile run, we had to go from the gym and run a mile (on a main road, with cars containing people) to the Hingham Shipyard. Wahlburger’s was a sponsor, so we got a burger and more importantly, a nice cold glass of water at the end. Running is one of my many goats. My lungs don’t like running, my body doesn’t like it, I just don’t like it. But I have to embrace it, because if something bad happens, I’m most likely going to have to run. With that being said, Alisa and I were starting our final run at the same time. At that stage of the game, I was spent, there was no way I was going to “run” aka slow jog anywhere after those squats. Alisa walk-ran the whole final mile with me. Even though she would finish way before me, if she just took off! I was glad to have her, but felt like I was holding her back. At that stage, I couldn’t even deal with anything, so I just did what I could. We came around the bend at the shipyard, and I could see bright orange shirts, and it was like a mirage! A Sharon Froio mirage- I knew I was almost there- so I stepped it up, and ran the rest of the way in! It was so awesome to finish and have someone to finish with. So thanks, Alisa- I probably would still be by the side of the road somewhere in Hingham, if it weren’t for your support!

That was the week before Memorial Day. On Memorial Day, we did probably the hardest WOD I’ve ever done, another hero WOD- “Adam Brown.” Again from Crossfit.com:
Two rounds for time of:
295 pound Deadlift, 24 reps
24 Box jumps, 24 inch box
24 Wallball shots, 20 pound ball
195 pound Bench press, 24 reps
24 Box jumps, 24 inch box
24 Wallball shots, 20 pound ball
145 pound Clean, 24 reps

Navy Chief Special Warfare Operator (SEAL) Adam Lee Brown, 36, of Hot Springs, Arkansas, was killed on March 17th, 2010 in Komar Province, Afghanistan, in a battle against heavily armed militants. He is survived by his wife, Kelley, two children, Nathan and Savannah, and by his parents.

Once again, this had to be scaled- hello I can’t DL/press/clean that much weight, so I did the DL @ 115lbs, Bench Press and Clean @ 65lbs. And the box jumps were scaled to a medium box + 45lb plate step-ups. We had to share a bench press bar with a partner, so I was working with Janine. Janine is so awesome. Her and her husband, Scott are two of the nicest people ever! So glad that they are at our box! Anyhow, this WOD absolutely killed me. Every time I turned around I was doing wall balls- another nemesis of mine! I started a minute ahead of Janine, so there wouldn’t be a traffic jam at the bench press, but of course, wall balls take me FOREVER to do, so she lapped me! I was starting to feel defeated, but then I remembered, that it didn’t matter, and I was going to finish no matter what. Once it was over, I was smoked. Mike told me it was the best he’d ever seen me move in a WOD (that was pretty cool- sort of like being student of the day…LOL). I was hurting for a few days after that!

A couple of days later or the following week- I don’t know- the days sort of blend now- we had a wod that was just 7 minutes of burpees. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? We did a little strength work before, and I PR’d my strict press and split jerk, but I was not looking forward to 7 minutes of all burpees. Probably my worst nightmare. But, the wods that you don’t want to go to, are the ones that you should probably be at! So there I went- burpees for a whole 7 minutes. The average number of reps in the class was between 70-100. I only got 30, and I was dead. I felt sort of like a failure. In a whole 7 minutes, all I could manage was 30 burpees, and other people were getting 70 and feeling bad about that score. But as he was walking out, Jay (the Marine- the older guy that comes to the 5:30p class all the time) told me that I was his hero. A Marine told me, that I was his hero. How cool is that? I’ve never thought of myself as someone that other’s would look up to- I just do what I can, and that’s that. But I’m starting to feel okay about myself and how I do in WODs. I know I’m not at the level I want to be at yet, but I will get there one day!

With all that being said, I signed up for my first individual competition today- Obviously in the scaled division, but it will make me push myself to work harder and really work on some of my goats (AKA box step ups). I’m pretty excited/scared and proud all at the same time! That’s coming up in August, and it’s going to be awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Regionals were this weekend! Hello, shirtless, sweaty, muscly men working out all day? SIGN ME UP! Seriously, these were the best athletes in the northeast region, and it was a pleasure to watch them throw down- both male and female! The atmosphere was so awesome- just so many muscles- everywhere- in the stands, at the booths, at the food trucks, it was crazy! Kaylee’s husband, JD, who works for Reebok and is also a coach for us and Reebok ONE, was a part of the RCF1 Team. That is pretty cool- when you know someone in real life who is competing. The ONE team did an excellent job, but sadly, they will not be going to the games this year. The weekend was still so awesome- hanging out with all crossfit people that get it and are pretty cool. Of course, I did take a photo with the cardboard cutout of Matt Fraser (the guy who one the regional) and asked the Progenex guy if I could have his poster of Dan Bailey (a super muscly, handsome crossfitter). Everyone laughs, but I would find a place for that!! haha

Me and my buddy, Alex! 🙂
Some of our awesome members! 
me & cardboard Matt Fraser! ❤

Today (and yesterday) as usual, I’ve been getting some negative feedback from my parents, specifically my mother, because of how I choose to do crossfit activities over staying home. It doesn’t make sense. If I stayed home, she would ask me why I wasn’t going out- if I go out, I get yelled at for not being home. I just can’t keep it straight. I’ve touched on this before (See last week’s post) about how it sucks when friends and family members do not support your decision to make your life better via Crossfit. Yes, it is something that I enjoy, and talk about a lot, but is it my entire life? No. I have a lot of other things going on too, but for some reason, the thought of me being a part of the crossfit community doesn’t sit well with my family. You would think I joined the KKK or something like that. Yes, I enjoy watching youtube videos of Rich Froning and other athletes banging around weights. Yes, I like going to the box to workout and blow off some steam. Yes, I’m grateful for every one of the friendships I’ve made at the box. Yes, I’m happy that I am finally starting to feel comfortable in my own skin. Why do any of these things seem negative to my family? I can’t wrap my head around it. I’m glad that I have other people at the box to discuss these things with- it just seems like I’m always trying to look for acceptance from my family, but I’m having a hard time dealing with the fact that they are not going to support me in this endeavor of mine. My favorite part of “The Monarchy” (Sorry MM!!) Elena, just said to me “Your parents don’t have the solution, you do.” Like, she JUST wrote that to me. how fitting. So from now on, I will be the strong lady I know I can, and ignore the negativity. If people don’t want to accept me the way I am, then they can watch me leave.

My love, Rich doing work. ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ 

Once again, I feel like I’m forgetting something, but I think that’s good enough for now. So grateful for my crossfit family and my ability to fight for my happiness. Enjoy your night! Thanks for reading! You guys and gals are the best! 🙂
<3- AA

Finding a good place is hard…

Hey everyone!
Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying what’s left of the weekend! It has been an interesting couple of weeks for me- that’s for sure. I have been having some emotional ups and downs- most of them having nothing to do with crossfit at all, so if you’re not interested. Disclaimer- this might get emotional- be prepared!  haha.

That being said- I know I’ve probably asked people this on an individual basis before, but have you guys ever had anyone make you feel awful about your choice to do crossfit? I’ve been getting a lot of negativity from family members and coworkers and it makes me so mad. I know I should just learn to let the comments go, but it would be nice if I could get a little support. I try and explain why it means a lot to me and all I get is “Well I think you should just be doing cardio” or “Why would you do something that makes you so sore and gives you bruises?” It’s so frustrating to hear these things over and over. I’ve been trying really hard to just let it go, but there are days where I get so mad and want to tell everyone to eff off. You would think at least my family would be a little supportive- I mean, this is the longest I’ve stuck with a program & actually been excited to go work out! But that’s not good enough. I guess I need to learn that I need to make myself happy and stop trying to make everyone else happy. It’s tough though.

I’ve recently been getting into meditation and self reflection, and I can honestly say, it is helping with every day things. My personality is to very much help everyone around me and make sure that they like me- or that I get accepted by everyone. But there are sometimes where I need to realize that I need the help and I don’t need to try so hard. The people who truly understand me and get me will still be friends with me, even if I don’t go that extra mile for them. I just constantly have this feeling that I have to fit in- and sometimes I stretch myself way beyond what I really want to do. For example, if there’s a day that I have planned a day off from going to a WOD, if one of my friends texts me and asks me if I’m going and I say no- I automatically feel guilty and feel like I’m letting them down. But in reality, they don’t care as much as I think they do. I don’t know- I just need to get it together & stop trying to please everyone- and just focus on me for a while.

As usual, I’ve been having an awful time in the dating world…along with most of my single girlfriends! I just don’t get what the problem is. I don’t want to sound cocky, but I think I’m a pretty decent catch- come from a good family, job, car, cook, bake, funny, pretty decent head on my shoulders, oh and I crossfit! I just don’t get it. I find myself going on the online dating sites just for laughs now, since I can’t seem to find anything sustainable. I guess I’ll have to let that part of my life play out too, but now I’m getting older, and it’s just hard to think that I may be single for the rest of my life. I know I wouldn’t be lonely, but I would have that longing to have someone to spend time with that wasn’t my family- haha.

On to the crossfit part of this- things have been going fairly well- I’ve had a ton of PRs over the last few weeks- with all of those benchmark workouts! Which is really awesome. I’m proud of where I am, but sometimes I get so jealous and discouraged when I see people who just started or started after me be able to get a pull up, or throw more weight on the bar than me. It blows. I know I need to just  be competing with myself, but it really sucks to feel like I’m still at the place I was when I first started- and am constantly struggling with things. Nothing for me is ever easy. Sometimes that’s a good thing, but sometimes it sucks, and it makes you sad and cry.

Even though I’ve been having a tough time on my own, there are people that have it way worse than me, and I’m grateful that I have such a strong community around me, to help me rally and take away my emotional mess status for at least that one hour that I’m at the box. I really know I say it all the time, but it’s important for me to say it this week, especially- I’m so incredibly grateful for my crossfit family. I have no clue what I would do without you all, and I am so glad I have each and everyone of you in my life. Life can be pretty tough sometimes, but when you find people around you that love you for no reason at all- just because you are you, it’s pretty amazing. I can’t even begin to name everyone that has been an integral part of my crossfit life, but this week Sharon, Elena, Michael, Mike, Colleen M, Kaylee, Harrison, Eats, Lenore, Michelle, Jeff, Chris, Hill, Phil & Alex have shown me what it means to have an anchor and incredible support system in my life. Now, I better get to bed- 4:30a will be here before I know it! Enjoy the week!

P.S.- Regionals are coming up soon and I’m SO excited. I can’t wait to see so many amazing athletes competing right in front of me. Although, I am sad that my main squeeze, Rich isn’t part of the NorthEast region, I guess the other ripped up guys will have to do! hahahaha

❤ AA

The open, my loving crossfit family, and my girl crush!

Hi all!

So it’s been a while!  I have been busy with work/crossfit/social stuff/ watching all the episodes of Chrisley knows best, etc.  I’m back now and ready to get back to my regular blogging schedule!
The CrossFit open has come and gone. So many good things happened not only to me, but to a lot of people at RCFBC!  If you’re not sure what the Crossfit open is, here’s a quick synopsis: 
” The CrossFit Open is the first leg of the qualifying process to reach the “championship” competition, the CrossFit Games (a days-long event broadcast by ESPN last year).The Open is comprised of five workouts, performed over five weeks, for a score—generally either most reps completed in a set amount of time or a workout completed as fast as possible. At the end of the five weeks, the top 48 men and top 48 women advance to The Regionals. There is also a Team Competition with the top 30 teams advancing to the Regional competition. Every individual and every team in the world performs the same workout on a given week, and they all learn about it at the same time: 5 p.m. Pacific Time on Thursday evening. Competitors have until the following Monday at 5 p.m. Pacific Time to complete the workout and submit their score.”
Basically it’s 5 weeks to see how you stack up against the other people that are in your division. If you competed last year, you can see how you’ve progressed, & you can also see what strengths and weaknesses you have.  For me, this year was mostly about weaknesses (as it usually is!!).   
Week 1:
The first workout included double unders. For someone who BARELY had single unders, I knew I was gonna be out- and we didn’t even start yet. I felt so defeated when they announced that workout. But you know what,  it forced me to practice! I had a terrible bout of bronchitis and a wicked bad cold leading up to the first workout, so I was already down for the count. I went in to the gym on Sunday to practice- talk about waiting until the last minute! I got so many tips from Hill & Phil, The Monarchs, & Alex- things that would be playing in the back of my head while I was doing that wod on Monday….so I thought. When it came down to it, all I needed to get was one- in order for my score to count. Sharon was at the box that night- if it wasn’t for her and her constant guidance, as well as the support of the entire 5:30pm class, I would have never got that double under! That was such an amazing day.
Week 2:
Overhead squats and pull ups. Are you kidding me? I’ve only done overhead squats one other time before this- and it was my one rep max @ 65lbs. I knew I wouldn’t get to the pull ups/I can’t do them yet, so  that was just a non-factor for me.  There’s no way I was going to get 10 of them at 65lbs. But I knew I could get one.  I ended up doing this one on a Friday- thank goodness for Sam, Lenore, Michelle, Colleen, & Eats. I don’t think I would’ve got through the 7 overhead squats if it wasn’t for the motivation and impeccable dancing!
Week 3:
The one I had been dreading all along. Deadlift/Box jump ladder. Deadlifts- easy day- As Mike says, I have long arms, which helps with deadlifts. It was the box jumps- or step ups as far as I was concerned. In order for my score to count, I would have to get 15 step ups on a 20in box. My biggest fear. I breezed through the deadlifts, and I knew a majority of my time would be spent on the step ups. I was surrounded by so many amazing people- I can’t even put into words the energy and support that was around me that day. Lauren, Kaylee, Lenore, Hillary, Christy, Elena- just the whole group of strong ladies was focused on me&  making sure I was being supported. Every single rep- even if I missed it, or had trouble- they were there- cheering me on. Thank goodness for Lauren’s quick thinking- I had been practicing my step-ups with the box against the wall- sort of as a safety net…not like the wall is going to do anything if I fell off, but it still made me feel better! Lauren moved the box against one of the beams that’s in the middle of the gym. That was the best thing that could’ve happened- she was on her game and it was the best idea! It gave me the feeling of that safety net, which was exactly what I needed. When time was called, I basically just fell into the arms of those ladies who cheered me on the entire time. I was crying (as usual) and a few other people were too. It was just a feeling of pure joy and relief that I actually was able to get it done.  I just can’t even explain the feeling that surrounded me that day- all I can say is that it was amazing…just the feeling of love and support meant so much to me, and I hold the feeling of that day very near to my heart.
That friggin box and my amazing judge- Lenore! ❤ 

The amazing ladies that helped get me through this L-R: Kaylee, Elena, Lenore, Lauren- Love you ladies more than you know!! ❤ xoxo
Week 4:
This was a fun one.  It started out with 60 calorie row- easy day. But the next thing was toes to bar, followed by wall balls, followed by cleans, and finally finished with muscle ups. Finish that in 14 minutes. I knew I had the row and the wall balls down. The rest of the stuff- I would have to scale, and the row would only count toward my score. But I wanted to get a decent workout in, so I decided to scale the other movements and just get after it!
Week 5:
This was the workout that broke me- mentally and physically. It was 21-18-15-12-9-6-3 reps of thrusters @ 65lbs and burpees over the bar. The thrusters I had- I hate them, but I can do them at that weight! The burpees over the bar- another story. Mike set up a faux bar so that I could jump at the same height that was required, but without the risk of tripping over the bar- he knows me so well! We tested it out, and it just wasn’t in the cards for me. But I would still be able to submit a score with the thrusters- and I would just do regular burpees. Sounds easy enough, right??? WRONG. I am so slow at burpees. It takes a lot of effort to get this body down and up off the ground one time, nevermind 85 times!  There was no time cap, so I had to finish the entire number of reps. Right around rep 6 out of the 21 thrusters- I started thinking  “I’m never gonna finsh” but I just kept going. I got to rep 4 of the 21 burpees and I started crying. Instead of focusing on the small number, I just kept thinking about how many more I had left to do in total. That was a bad decision. Nina, Elena, and myself were in the back room while the other class was doing the regular workout of the day. Elena & Nina, as well as the whole 9am class had finished and I was still there- just barely through the 15 thrusters.  Most of the entire class was next to me- cheering me on and pushing me further than I would’ve pushed myself. All I remember saying to Sharon was, I’m gonna quit- I’m never going to finish- I’m just gonna quit.  She wouldn’t let me! Sharon, Kaylee, and Christy were right next to me- Christy doing each burpee with me- AFTER she had already worked out. It was so awesome. It took me 53:53 to finish. Almost a full hour of thrusters and burpees. I have never felt so defeated in my life. I just couldn’t get over that it took me that long to do that. I was completely spent. I actually took the rest of the week of off CF to recover and get it together.  
Started from the bottom…Sarah and I! xo
So basically, I have a lot of stuff to work on for next year. As I expected. I’m glad it’s over, but I sort of have a longing now for the weekly announcements. It was something I looked forward to, despite it being terrifying! We just celebrated the end of the open with a huge party at Sarah’s house- that was a lot of fun! I love seeing everybody in real clothes and out of the gym- so much fun! Thanks again, Sarah for hosting- it was a blast! 🙂
Now, I’m working on some problems that I’ve been having with getting my diet on track. Kaylee has been instrumental with this. Speaking of Kaylee, I sort of have a girl crush on her. She’s one of the coaches, is married to JD- a games athlete, and she’s just awesome. She’s a little peanut, but man is she strong! She’s from the South, so she’s automatically nice…haha. I just love her! She’s been helping me with a meal plan- something realistic, that I can stick to – and has been great about responding to my endless emails and texts about stuff- I would’ve told me to pound sand by now! She is such an asset to the gym, and I can’t imagine not having her, now that she’s been there for a while. Like Mike, she is part of my safety net. If she’s there, I automatically want to do better and she pushes me to be better.

We recently had the president of CustomFit Meals visit our gym. He was from the South- so automatically nice. His name is Mike, and he shared his personal account of how food has been a huge part of his life, and his story really resonated with me. If you get a chance, check out the website- https://www.customfitmeals.com/ and read about them. I don’t get any kickbacks from them- I just really liked his story and the protein bars are pretty delicious! 🙂

I cannot say thank you enough times for the amount of support, cheers, love, tears, & laughter I have received from my crossfit family. Thank you just isn’t enough. I am forever grateful for each and every one of you and am so incredibly happy to have you in my life! ❤
P.S.- I know most of you see my almost constant facebook posts about crossfit this and crossfit that- I just want you to know that they won’t stop- so if it bothers you, just block me- because this is a major part of my life now!
P.P.S-  I can’t wait for the NorthEast Regionals! It’s going to be amazing!!
XOXO

-A
Rich Froning’s butt at the ECC- just in case you forgot how good it looks!! 😉

It’s been awhile….

Hi!

It’s been a while since I’ve written! Things have been absolutely crazy, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. So big things- the 2014 CrossFit Open is coming up in a couple of weeks. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous. Last year’s open was so much fun, and it really helped get in touch with how strong I really am- mentally and physically. Sure, there were plenty of open workouts I could not do RX, but still being able to be at my box, throwing down with friends, is worth it. If you have been thinking about signing up for the open, and haven’t yet- DO IT!! It’s fun, and we are going to do the workouts anyway, so you might as well!

In other big news, I was able to step up on to a 20in box a few weeks ago! Mike told me I had to start getting comfortable with the step ups because of the open workouts- there’s no way they won’t be included in the programming. Naturally, I panicked- and then very quickly looked to some of my fellow crossfitters for help. That is where the Monarch’s come in. I’ve written about them before- they are awesome. Elena and Mike- and their fabulous children have and continue to help me with many things- but stepping on that box was a major accomplishment. I reached out to Elena & Mike, because I knew they would some how be able to break through to me. I can’t explain it- they are just good at helping people and talking to them, so that they understand. We met on a Sunday afternoon- the Monarch’s, me, and that box. We started out slow- using the rig as a “railing” and then moved on to small boxes, etc. They were great with me- even when I started crying and freaking out. They knew all the right words to calm me down and get me past my fear. FINALLY, I got up there. It may have only happened once, but it happened. Here’s the video- it’s pretty amazing haha  https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=656508286030&l=5074581151559000647
Now, I’ve been doing WODS with box jumps- using a 16in box + a 45lb plate to step up. I’ve been practicing my step-ups, and I’m hoping to be able to have them for when they show up in the open! Thanks again to the Monarchs- you’ve helped me in more ways than I can thank you for! ❤

The Monarchy and I!! ❤

On that dumb box!! haha




Some more fantastically amazing news- I MET RICH FRONING!!!!!!!!!!! Are you kidding me???? The Kill Cliff East Coast Championships were in town a couple of weeks ago. I tried getting tickets, but they were sold out before I could buy them. I even offered my first unborn child for a ticket to that championship. Rich Froning in my home and I won’t get to see him? How sad is that? I was on the hunt- I even put out a craigslist ad! But then an angel with blonde hair named Sharon came from heaven…or Mount Sunapee…haha. Sharon said that Chris has tickets for both of them, but she wasn’t sure she wanted to go, so she offered her ticket to me. I was literally speechless and so excited. I was going to be so close to Rich and so many other awesome athletes. I was also going with Chris, so the probability that I would actually meet Rich was significantly higher. Chris is a pretty sassy guy, and he knows a lot of people, so I was happy to be his plus one at this event! I was posted up right on the gates for most of the heats- JD and Spencer Hendel were SO close to me- I couldn’t even handle it. I was completely in awe of all of the athletes there- not just the “famous” ones. Everyone was incredible. CrossFit girls are pretty legit- like they could totally take any guy I know in a fight. Anyway, it was time for Rich’s heat to come up- he was teamed up with Stacie Tovar, Elizabeth Akinwale, and Chris Spealler. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Some of the best athletes in the whole world, and they were aptly named, “The Dream Team.” I had some inside info about what lane the dream team was going to be in, so I started to make my way over. Of course it was completely crowded, but Chris F. told me just to muscle my way through and get as close as possible. And boy, was I close. I could have touched Rich….but security was around, so I had to get it together!! I took no less than 100 pictures of him and the rest of the dream team. This is the closest I was going to get to ever seeing him compete in real life, so it was pretty freaking awesome. Then I got a text from Chris- “Do you want to meet Rich?” Like, my response would ever be anything other than a resounding YESSSSSSS! I was so excited. I couldn’t handle it. I got to go into the Athlete’s area and got to meet some of the most elite athletes in the world. Along with Mrs. Froning- who of course is the sweetest, prettiest human I’ve met! Chris warmed me up by having me meet Spencer Hendel. I’ve loved him since Regionals last year, so this was pretty awesome- When I first met him, he told me I had really pretty jewelry, obviously I blushed- because that is awesome. Then I met Chris Spealler- who is one of the CrossFit originals- he is so little, but so incredibly strong and nice. Then it was time. Time to meet the man- Rich Froning Jr. Fittest Man on Earth- 3 years in a row. I was absolutely shaking. I didn’t even know what to do or say. He was right there- like a regular person! Luckily, Chris took control of the camera, because I was shaking like a leaf. He was so nice and incredibly handsome in person! I still can’t believe  I got to meet him- me- just a regular person from RCFBC got to meet him. So cool! I can’t thank Sharon and Chris enough for giving me such an awesome opportunity. You guys seriously have no clue how much that meant to me- It was one of the best experiences of my life. And wouldn’t you know it, I had a PR the very next day- must have been the remnants of Rich on me!! Chris and Sharon- I think the world of you guys and can’t express how much you guys mean to me. You’ve been instrumental in helping to save my life. From the very bottom of my heart, thank you. ❤


My best friend, Rich and I! haha




Rich, Spencer, Chris, & JD!

So right now, life is pretty good. I’m just getting over a nasty GI bug- so I lost a few days of CF, but obviously my body needed a break. I’m looking forward to the open and I pretty much look forward to every new week of CrossFit. I never thought I would be saying something like that, but it’s true. No matter how much flack I get from my family about how crossfit “isn’t for big people like you” I just push their negativity aside, and keep on going. I’m not doing this for them- I’m doing this for me, and even though it’s tough, and I hurt, and I’m achy, it’s worth it. I’m not quitting- not now, not ever. This is my new life, and if my actual family can’t accept it, I know I’ll always have the love and support of my CrossFit family. Enjoy the rest of the weekend- see you guys at the box! ❤ xoxo
Rich on a box…those abs though….

Hurdle jumps- I was right on that fence!!!!

My amazing, silly, supportive, awesome RCFBC family. ❤ XOXO

One. Year.

One. Year.
I can’t believe it’s been a whole, entire year since I first stepped through the doors of Reebok Crossfit Bare Cove & changed my entire life. I remember that day so vividly. We were in the old space- the tiny area had to accommodate 26 of us! I made my best friend, Kiely come with me- because naturally I couldn’t do it alone! My first impression was basically- holy shit. Am I going to be able to do this? All of the people in this class are already so skinny and fit. But I made a promise to myself that I would try the class and do the two week OnRamp. Even if I didn’t sign up after that, at least I gave it a try.
Sharon & Chris were the first people I met. Mike wasn’t at the first day of OnRamp, because Alabama had just won the championship & he was out celebrating. First impressions of Sharon were pretty mean at the time- I just thought- look at this skinny blonde- I bet she doesn’t even eat anything, and is a bitch. I was 5000% wrong. Sharon is the NICEST person. And a great cook. Hahaha. First impressions of Chris were weird- I thought to myself- look at this tan, hot dad, with those sort of angry eyebrows. I wonder if he’s married to someone here. Then I found out that him and Sharon were married and they had two kids. Literally a crossfit power couple. They have both helped me through so much, and I’ll never forget the first time I met them- even though my assumptions about them were completely wrong (well, maybe not about Chris, but definitely Sharon)!
The next day of OnRamp, I met Mike. My first impressions of him were pretty funny. He’s not from here, because he’s too nice; he has way too much energy; I wonder if he’s going to be able to help a person like me. I was right- he’s from Louisiana, so he doesn’t have that Massachusetts bitterness that I thought I was going to get. His energy is still to this day- beyond belief crazy. I wish I could siphon it from him some days! He helped me from the very first day to today. He’s been with me through injuries, PRs, failures, and everything in between. I have more respect and love for him than he’ll ever know. He has completely changed my life and made me a better person. He has such a passion for crossfit and general wellness- and I know he has a soft spot for pretty much everyone at our box. He remembers everything- he knows how to scale everyone & he is never out of that energy. Even if he’s having a bad day, or is tired- you would never know.
Soon after meeting Mike, Lauren came around. I had pretty much the same impression of her, as I did of Sharon. But once again, I was completely wrong! She is so spunky  and incredibly nice and thoughtful. When a WOD is tough, she knows just the right amount of energy to yell at you, so you keep going. Also, she has incredibly style and taste- and she loves kitchen gadgets almost as much as me! haha
Once OnRamp was in full swing, I started thinking- ok these people are sort of in the same boat as me. They don’t really know what’s going on. It made me feel good to know that I wasn’t the only person who was clueless. Even now, I still sometimes feel completely lost in class. I think back to when I first started, and I remember every modification that I had to make just to do a push up & I’m thankful that I stuck with it.
There are a lot of things that I can’t do yet. Even after being a “crossfitter” for an entire year. Basic things, like a pull up, real push up, box jump, and the list goes on and on. But for everything that I can’t do, there are so many things that I CAN do, that I never thought I would do. The list of PRs is constant, and the feeling I get after each accomplishment is indescribable.  I’ve had setbacks. I’ve had a lot of setbacks- some physical (that pesky broken wrist), and some mental (stupid box jumps); but those setbacks make the accomplishments feel so much better. Breaking my wrist made me realize how much
I actually took my mobility for granted. Thanks to my incredibly awesome, hilarious and handsome physical therapist, Travis- my wrist is pretty much back to where it was, prior to the fall!
You would never think doing 25 consecutive single unders would be an accomplishment, but coming from not even being able to bring my feet off the ground- it’s incredible.
I wouldn’t  have any accomplishments if it weren’t for the love and acceptance of my crossfit family. These people who were complete strangers; accepted me, helped me, cheered for me, laughed with me, and gave me a shoulder to cry on when I needed it. The community aspect is one of the main reasons I stuck with crossfit. The diversity is amazing & everyone is accepting and friendly. I’ve never had anything like that in my life. Complete strangers becoming good friends, and people you can’t imagine your life without. There are so many people that I want to name and say thank you to, but there are too many. So consider this a blanket thank you and expression of love to everyone at RCFBC. Seriously. You guys are the best. I most definitely would have quit, if it weren’t for the amazing community that we have built.
There has been drama, there have been tears, there has been blood & broken bones, but most importantly, I have been happy. Truly happy. The happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life. The confidence I’ve gained due to crossfit and my new found lifestyle is nothing short of amazing. I may not have a boyfriend, my own house, or be debt free, but I’m happy. I’m happy that I decided to take charge of my life, that I made a whole new set of friends, that I found something that I actually love to do, and don’t find it to be a chore. I’m happy that I have people in my life that like me just for me- and aren’t using me for anything. I’m happy that I’m finding out what truly matters to me, and how I can make myself feel better.
It’s been a year, and while I may look the same physically, mentally I’m totally different. I am not the same person I was a year ago. I never want to see that person again. I love my new life. I love being able to do things that people don’t even dream of doing. I love being part of the crowd for once. I love having friends that love me for me. I love standing up for myself. I love everything about my new life.
So in closing, here’s a list of things that I can do now, that I wasn’t able to do one year ago:
1000m Row: 4:28m
5K: 58:42m
1RM Back squat: 145lbs
1RM Clean: 90lbs
1RM Clean & Jerk: 90lbs
1RM Deadlift: 165lbs
1RM Front Squat: 110lbs
1RM Split jerk: 100lbs
1RM Squat Clean: 75lbs
1RM Strict Press: 75lbs
Double touch and go clean: 90lbs
Scaled push ups
More than 20 unbroken single unders
Ab Mat situps
“Grace”                              “Murph”
“JT”                                    “2007”
“Adam Brown”                   “Linda”
“Annie”                               “Fight Gone Bad”
“Filthy Fifty”                        “Crossfit Total”
“Fran”                                 “Linda”
“Diane”                                “Roy”
“Karen”                              Competed in my first ever Crossfit Open!
And so many more! I can’t wait to see what this year has for me. Big things I’m sure. The open is coming up, and I can’t wait to see what this year brings. We are doing this thing “JumpStart January” a way to get back on track for the new year. So I decided to share mine with you- just so it becomes real & I’m held accountable for my actions. So here it goes:
Amanda’s Jump Start January Plan
Goal
 Lose 15lbs & get consecutive 20in box step ups before the start of the Crossfit Open
How will you measure your goal?
* Track all of my meals on Loseit.com
*Meal prep every Sunday and Wednesday- clean eating; only one cheat meal per week-minimal alcohol consumption
*Practice stepping up on smaller boxes until I can get on to the big box- use rig as support until I get enough confidence to do it without “railings”
*Mentally prepare myself for stepping on a high box
Why is the goal important?
I’m getting back to basics. Remembering why I started and making the weight loss permanent.
I need to get over my box jump fear. It’s crippling me and holding me back.
Change 1
Cut out all junk and trigger foods-get back to clean foods
1/6-1/31
Change 2
Practice step ups after every class and track progression
1/13-1/31
Change 3
Cut out take out food- make sure everything is planned ahead of time
1/20-1/31
Change 4
Practice single unders everyday before or after (or both) class
1/27-1/31
So to everyone who has followed me on this journey, given words of encouragement, or even just smiled- Thank you. Thank you for everything. This has been an amazing year and I wouldn’t change a minute of it. I’ve realized that I’m stronger than I think and I can do whatever I put my mind to, as cliché as it sounds. I may not be the picture of the ideal crossfitter, but I am one, and I’m damn proud of it. Here’s to another year of PRs, fun, failures, friends, scrapes, bruises, blood, and happiness. Love you all more than words can express! XOXOXO
Super tan but way less happy than I appear! 

Serious Burgner Business. 

One year ago…in the old space! 

death by burpees

one of my favorites. Struggle fest!

Love her! 

Guy who changed my life!

Gun show!

Monarchs & Sarah! 

Me and the Monarchy!! 

Sharon and I!